What do you do when you realize that you have no idea what you want to do with your life?
I started babysitting when I was 11 years old. It was a big deal. I loved caring for younger children and since I have a much younger sister and brother I felt very “motherly”. I enjoyed babysitting and was offered more and more jobs. I was responsible and enjoyed this new position. Much later I found myself beginning to think about my future college and possible careers. My junior year in high school I had an assignment choose 2 careers you are interested in and shadow one of them. I choose interior designer and teacher. Teaching was always something I knew I wanted to do so I decided to choose interior design I ended up going to a business and learned nothing and decided ahh I don’t think so. By my senior year I decided teaching was my chosen profession.
During college I continued to steer my path toward my goal of becoming a teacher. No second thoughts no doubts I was positive that was what I wanted to do. I completed placements in classrooms and after a difficult internship I finally graduated in December. Finally found a teaching position the following fall as a teacher associate. After that year the position I had was terminated causing another search for a teaching position. I decided to take a leap and move to Florida and excepted a 3rd grade position. I will never regret my decision to do that I made a wonderful friend and had some fun times when I was there. However, I was alone and that made my experience difficult.
Now in my fifth year teaching in North Carolina I have found myself in a rut. I’m feeling teaching is more challenging then ever. In the last couple years I have started my doubts no longer positive becoming a very negative person.
The life as been sucked out of me. The path and goals that I started for myself so many years ago doesn’t seem to be the right fit for who I have become. What do you do when you find yourself at a crossroad? When you have no direction to go?